Tuesday, April 24, 2012


Hello everyone.

How are you today? I'm feeling rather drained. I'm still in my pajamas, hair unbrushed. Although I did brush my teeth at least. I don't particularly feel like dealing with anyone. And if there is anyone around, let's not talk. I'll make you some tea, lend you a book and a blanket and we can sit in silent companionship. Have you ever had a friend you can do that with? I do, a few actually. Mostly my fellow introverts. It can be rather soothing actually, to be able to sit with another human being and not feel like you must fill the gaps and cracks in the world with words, noise, nonsense.

Today what I want is tea, silence, and the space to be introspective. I've been able to enjoy these this morning, but I fear it's coming to an end soon. Tuesdays are the day my parents' cleaning lady comes, which means I have to chose between staying home and making conversation, or going out and running the risk of Friendly Strangers. And then there is class tonight, which requires more interaction.

So for now I am enjoying my solitude. The house is quiet, all I hear is the ticking clock. There's an explosion of green in front of me - house plants on this side of the window, and two trees and lilac bushes on the other side of the window.

Do you ever feel the need to wrap yourself in silence and solitude? What do you do for your mental/emotional health?

Monday, April 9, 2012

Exercise notes and more

Twice now I have participated in a couch to 5k program with my good friend B. She has a program on her phone that tells us when to walk and when to run. I believe it takes a half an hour. There's only one day a week that we know for sure will work, so I am planning on buying the program so I can do it on my own the other two days. It's not entirely challenging yet for me, but I know it will be soon. And I'm fine with easing back into exercising. Today when I came home I decided to do some push ups and planks. I managed to do 3 full pushups, but then I had to switch to being on my knees. I did 7 more on my knees. My goal right now is to be able to do 10 full push-ups. I also did a 20 second forearm plank, and 15 second side planks on each side.

In other news, I'm still looking for a ceremony location for my wedding. I did pick up my wedding dress this past Saturday though. While I was changing back into my clothes my mom made a suggestion about cutting out starches. I was kind of taken aback by that. I think instead I will try to eat healthy, and work out regularly. I'm trying to learn to value my body for what it is, rather then punishing myself for not fitting some societal bullshit requirements.