To run, or not to run.

I'm late on my update. I completely forgot about it last Friday. I don't even remember if something was going on, or if I just forgot. I probably just forgot. With so much going on, I've been forgetting a lot of things. I'm not really sure what to say though. I feel like even though I'm incredibly busy I have nothing to write about. I'm busy with all the same stuff and I don't want to bore you guys. Work (trying to find a new job,) School (trying to find time to do my homework), Wedding planning (trying to find a ceremony location).

Mainly lately, I've been trying to be ok with the fact that I seem to have gained a little weight. I don't know if I have or not. I haven't stepped on a scale because I'm trying to change a lifetime habit of associating my worth with my weight.

I could just be bloated. It is that time. However, I would not be surprised if I had gained some weight. I crave chocolate and salty snacks pretty much all the time when I'm stressed. So, I haven't been eating healthy. I also haven't been working out. I usually do Zumba once a week, but that's about it. And I didn't go last night. I was supposed to start exercising with a friend, but I had to cancel because I was exhausted.

I get jealous whenever I see a runner. I'm not sure if it's because I usually see then when I'm at or on my way to work, or if I really wish I was running.

Dream morning, take 1.

My dream morning did not happen this morning. At least, not entirely. I set my alarm to 7:30am, as I did not go to bed until 12:30. Mainly because Fiance doesn't come home until 10:30, and it really stinks to go all day without having a real conversation, or spending any time with him. Which honestly is my biggest obstacle to my early morning dream. Let's face it, his work schedule isn't likely to change. I will have to decide if watching the sun rise is worth not having those couple of hours with him.

It was successful in that I spent some time working on homework. I'm not done by any means, but at least I've worked on it. I will have to choose between exercising, and writing though as I don't have time to do both now.

Fiance is off of work today. Perhaps I can convince him to go for a walk with me after I get off of work. I would like to get some form of movement in today, but by the time I get off of work it is dark still and I am nervous about being a lone woman walking around in the dark. I wish I didn't live in a world where I had to worry about that.

I'm thinking about waking up at 7 tomorrow even though it's my day off. If I continue waking up a half hour earlier every day then it will be easier to wake up before the sun rises. However, it would be nice to have one morning that I don't wake up to an alarm.

So, goals for the week:
1. Work on achieving dream morning
2. Continue working on Master's Degree
3. Continue planning wedding
4. Write
5. Exercise.

If I don't talk to ya'll before then, see you in a week!

In which I describe my dream mornings

In my ideal life, I wake up before the sun rises fully refreshed. I make myself a cup of coffee or tea, and sit outside and watch the sun rise and contemplate life. Then I go for a run in the cool morning air, or do yoga in my back yard. Or maybe I take care of my garden, weeding, watering, and harvesting. And then I sit down with my journal or laptop, and write. Either creatively, journaling, or both.

Sounds lovely, right? So why aren't I doing it? My mornings right now generally involve waking up just after the sun rises feeling like a zombie until after I've had caffiene. Telling myself I will exercise or write right after I finish playing online. 3 hours later, I have to rush to get ready to go to work and I haven't accomplished anything.

So! The sun is supposed to rise at 7:03am tomorrow. I will have my alarm set for 6:30, and we will do this!

I've neglected you.

My poor little blog, I've been neglecting you. I keep meaning to write, to update you all on how my goals are going(slowly or not at all) but then I get distracted by...everything else in the world.

So, deal time!

I promise to post something once a week. And you (any of you) will read this and hopefully be inspired. And maybe, comment once in a while?

I hereby commit myself to posting at least on Fridays.